A few weeks ago, an old friend sent me a message on Facebook. He retold the story of a prayer I prayed during a ministry meeting. I've prayed it before, several times, but when he wrote it the timing just couldn't have been better. My prayer was, “God, wreck my plans and teach me to expect the unexpected.”
That was the day I found out I was pregnant.
I had been feeling a bit “off” but nothing like I had felt prior with the various rounds of chemo, radiation and then IVIG. This was different. I knew it was different too…I just couldn't talk myself into actually getting a pregnancy test.
I ended up getting two different kinds…you know, just to make sure. Later I followed through with three blood tests…could you tell I was in dis-belief?! It took forever to get in for an ultrasound (as in WEEKS…not puddly days…WEEKS), meanwhile, Steve was home on a break from school which allowed him to go with me to the actual ultrasound appointment. I kept thinking, ” They are going to see an empty sac…no baby…or worse, no heartbeat.” I had these thoughts with my other 2 pregnancies, but this one was different. I was told there was no chance I could become pregnant again after the high level of radiation I went through, as well as the misdiagnosis and literal body stress. Once again, I should have assumed I was going to be that one exception to the rule.
The ultrasound went great! As of today, I am 8 weeks and 5 days along…still a very long, adventurous road ahead.
Last year around this time I was feeling horrible headaches, lying in bed in pain and passing-out unexpectedly. One year later, here I am cancer-free and no more IVIG! My appetite is back and I have not gained permission to do any exercise except walking. I've gained non-baby weight like crazy…I went from barely eating one meal a day, to three with enjoying ice-cream too. My doctor told me to not stress over the weight…just enjoying myself and feeling comfortable. The pickle jar is empty too.
So readers, I ask you to join me on yet another twisted-turning adventure. Expect the unexpected! Here we go…again!