The Silver Lining You Need Today

During my battle with cancer, my absolute favorite minutes of my day were centered around the bedtime chatter of our boys. 

Even though there were so many events occurring in my life – in our lives – that seemed completely out of my control, lying with my kids in bed was something I was going to guard with the only strength I had left. 

So many nights, I would lay in the queen sized bed, whispering in the dark with our 4 year-old. As the vent blew cold air over my bald head and I shook under the blankets that hugged my frail body – it was in those moments I felt an ounce of calm within the storm. I would focus on completing a bedtime story that would be spontaneously crafted on the spot, listening to the heart of my child who was seeing so much more of life than I really felt comfortable revealing. 

I couldn’t jump on the bed with him. I could barely walk, holding myself up simply by clinging to walls and steady furniture items logically placed throughout our house. But I could lay with him as he dreamed out loud – as we made up stories of the places we would travel “when God heals you mommy.” 

My kiddo kept me believing, even during the many nights I couldn’t feel God at all. But something in my son’s voice, his childlike faith, brought hope into my lifeless, pain-filled, out-of-control reality. That’s why I clung to these nights we could dream together of places that seemed so far away – even if our imagination had us jumping on the very bed we were dreaming on. 

And for the record – I don’t encourage jumping on beds…but the day I heard the doctor FINALLY put my name in the same sentence as remission…yes, I was bouncing…even with the addition of a third child by that point! 

Oh the silver lining…

I read the following passage this morning and though I’ve read through the entire Bible, my heart seemed to skip a beat:

The LORD replies, “I have seen violence done to the helpless, and I have heard the groans of the poor. Now I will rise up to rescue them, as they have longed for me to do.” The LORD’s promises are pure, like silver refined in a furnace, purified seven times over. Therefore, LORD, we know you will protect the oppressed, preserving them forever from this lying generation, even though the wicked strut about, and evil is praised throughout the land. (Psalms 12:5-8 NLT)

Wait, did you miss it? Did you hear Abba’s whisper? This is what I heard:

Bethany, My promises are pure, like silver refined in a furnace, purified seven times over. (Psalms 12:6 NLT)
 
His promises are as real as the heat of our painful, uncertain circumstances.
 
In my pain, refine me Abba.
When I feel I have lost control, refine me Abba.
When I am hopeless, refine me Abba.
 
If you find yourself in the heat of this refining fire today, cling to His promises. Hear His whispers echo through your broken heart. Know you are not alone and He has not left you to fight alone. No, He is refining you to do more than you can even imagine. 

Bethany is an ICF trained Certified Professional Christian Life Coach (Christian Coach Institute Graduate), Motivational and Inspirational Speaker, mentor to women and an author. Bethany defines herself as a child of God who loves to use her passion for change to inspire others. She has overcome disabilities, wading through the trials and rewards of marriage and motherhood. She enjoys being a wife to Steve for 10 years and mother to three boys (ages 7, 5 and 2). She is a double brain cancer survivor, a 9 year veteran in the field of youth and children's ministry and has published poetry, featured blog posts for numerous ministry websites and children's ministry curriculum contributions. Bethany is currently working on her first book to be released this Fall as well as various freelancing projects. Bethany always welcomes new coaching clients and speaking opportunities!

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8 thoughts on “The Silver Lining You Need Today

  1. Bethany, this is my o my, i can identify with this, the coy i was overseeing was in serious debt (it still is) i lost my health to diabetes and high blood pressiure and of course depression, my only consolation were my two children now 7 and 6 years old, oh it kept me alive and sure gave me reasons to live, i used to say if i fail in business at least i have not failed as a mother! God bless you Sis

    • My heart broke as I read this. How are you doing today friend? Remember, the past nor the present defines your worth…only God can do that. You are worth more to Him than you can even imagine. Draw near to Him first before anyone or anything else. Praying for you and please keep me updated!

  2. Amazing reminder, Bethany, that when the fire seems the hottest God is doing an amazing work in our lives! We need to remember to take our eyes off of our circumstances and put theme on God’s promises. They never fail!
    I am a cancer survivor too-praying we both hear the “all is good” from our medical teams but if and when we don’t we have the promises of God to carry us through His refining fire.
    God Bless you and your sweet family!

    • Thanks Nancy! As cancer survivors and life thriving sisters, we got to stick together, right?! Beautifully worded friend! Your words mean so much to me today! Thank you!!

  3. Oh, thank you for sharing your heart today! On those hard, hard days, it is very easy to walk by sight rather than by faith. Being refined is so very important and nothing we go through is unusable in God’s economy. It doesn’t make the hard easy but it does make it better.

  4. What a powerful way of getting your point across: “His promises are as real as the heat of our painful, uncertain circumstances.”
    Thanks for sharing some of your story with us.

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