The wisest definition of insanity is simply:
Doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result (source unknown)
But we wouldn’t know anything about that now would we? No, of course not.
A year ago around this very date, I was planning a very last minute trip to Missouri to attend the Healing For The Nations October intensive retreat – an invitation from God to briefly escape the insanity cycle I had been riding for years. I left for the retreat feeling exhausted and so very tired of simply holding it altogether. Our family was without a permanent place to live, my husband had finally found temporary employment after seven months of absolutely no income, our newborn was diagnosed with hearing-loss and I had recently completed physical therapy learning how to walk again (you know…the normal stuff we all deal with).
God literally moved mountains for me to attend this retreat at exactly His time. It both excites me and sends chills down my spine when I see His fingerprints all over this event in my life.
It was here that I was able to freeze time briefly, put the cell phone away, grab His hand and simply learn what it means to take every thought captive. You see, I was able to see God in the most amazing ways that weekend, but there was one very practical take-away that I use on a daily even hourly basis. It’s questions from my Abba directly to me. Questions that help me to breakaway from the thought cycle of insanity – regardless of my life circumstances.
How does this situation make you feel?
What do you think this says about you?
What does this say about Me?
What does this say about who I created you to be?
There are more questions I have learned to humbly bring before my Abba as He continues to cleanse my mind with His promises. This retreat gave me the tools I needed to battle the insanity waging war in my mind and claimed my heart. These “whispers” stem from my time of questioning on a daily basis with my Abba – redefining myself continually as His child.
He whispers to me:
Bethany, My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts…And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8, 9 NLT)
Defeating the insanity cycle…yes.
By allowing Him to question my thoughts that trigger my explosion of emotions and actions, I can break the insanity cycle. I can remain grounded in His promises – His gentle whispers. Granted, there are times I lose that grip of trust, but I know how it feels to return in my brokenness and humbly be reconciled unendlessly as His daughter.
Does life ever seem to be a cycle for you? How do you find God in the insanity? I’d love to hear from you!