This morning as our family was eating breakfast, we continued our normal routine of pouring cereal to the sights and sounds of Good Morning America. The boys love it just about as much as I do…and for us, that combination is a winner. Of course today, the coverage was on Times Square as the preparations continue for tonight’s countdown to 2013. Josh and Caden watched as they showed clips of the big, flashing crystal ball slowly make its descent to the bottom, meeting a crowd that erupted into cheering. It was so fun just watching their faces…they had never seen this before and most likely, they will not be up tonight to see it live. Caden started his version of the countdown ..the version only mom and dad could possibly understand. Cute nonetheless.
Our family is at a much better place than last year. Still walking in the midst of uncertainty, but my health has made a nice cushion of comfort that I believe has allowed our family to breathe a bit easier.
I don’t even remember what I did for New Years last year…most likely I slept through the entire event. I don’t remember planning anything. I remember taking medications around the clock to ease pain and assist sleeping. I remember some of Christmas Day, limping around, wishing I could be on the floor WITH the kids as they opened their gifts. I look back at the photos we took from Christmas 2011 and I think, “I really don’t remember any of this.”
And then there is this year…
From baking Christmas cookies, to playing with the VeggieTales manger scene…I was involved and captured what I could. we decorated right after Thanksgiving was over…the boys put up the tree and I FINALLY got the chance to put up my lighted village that Steve got me for our first Christmas together (we just had not had the right setup until now to really get use from it). We baked Christmas cookies. We went out to see Christmas lights…twice! We had countless Christmas movie nights watching videos Steve and I watched as kids (its amazing the parts of these films you laugh about later). We made a birthday cake for Jesus, we went to the kids preschool program and then watched as they had a part in our church’s Christmas Eve program as well. We ended up getting an AMAZING deal on CraigsList allowing Santa to really hit the nail on the head this year with Caden’s train table, Josh’s tablet (mommy’s old android tablet with a new case with no internet and learning apps…oh…and Angry Birds) and even a used swing set (again…Craigs list). For a minute on Christmas Day, Steve and I just sat in the living room while the boys were playing happily and I remember thinking, “This is our first Christmas in our own home as a family together.” Everyone was happy. everyone was in good spirits and everyone was healthy…well, Steve is getting over a cold. But, we are in a much better place than last year.
So tonight I told Steve I want Oriental along with dip, chips and sparkling grape juice. There is no guarantee I will stay awake until midnight (I’m in the third trimester now and the energy level…especially at night just takes a dive).
But one thing is for sure…I will remember this New Year’s Eve. i will remember the smiles, the laughter and enjoy sitting on the floor with my kids (though getting up off the floor is a different story). Funny how one year changes things…
Baby boy is doing great. I see the doctor again later this week and a follow-up ultrasound will be scheduled. Steve let me get a back massage a few weeks ago and then we got a nice massage cushion online for my Christmas gift. I can say now that the back pain is manageable The doctors are attributing the pain partially due to the baby, but also due to the strong use of the spinal cord during chemo and the IVIG process. I would have gone through a year of needed healing, instead my body jumped right into pregnancy. Most likely I will need chiropractor assistance after baby boy is born.
And for those wondering…I have a name for our baby boy. Steve hasn’t quite jumped on board yet…so until he agrees or baby boy comes out and I name him on the spot (no telling which will come first at this rate)…well, we will let you know.
From our family to yours…Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!