Have you ever found yourself in an emotional conversation with God pleading, “Lord, tell me where You want me to go and I’ll go! Tell me what You want me to do and I’ll do it! Just tell me!”
And when He answers…oh no…no no no…“Anything but that. Lord, please You are not telling me to do that!”
Oh yes He did.
Confession – I may at times respond just like my six year-old when I don’t like what God tells me to do. I pretend like I don’t hear His voice. I “forget” His commands. I run, kick and scream my little fits at Him not understanding why He wants to use me, right now. The timing just isn’t convenient for me. Perhaps another time God. I’m comfortable right here.
But God never told us to be comfortable.
A year ago our boys were gifted new backpacks and school supplies from a church in our community. My husband and I were both unemployed. We lost our house. With a newborn, a 3 year-old and a 5 year-old, I completely dreaded those insanely long school supply lists. Medical bills continued to arrive from my past chemo and radiation treatments. My strength was still limited. I felt like I had hit rock bottom. Yet, CenterPointe Church bridged the gap. They brought comfort to our moment of uncertainty. They made our kids smile. They made us smile. New backpacks, free lunch, face-painting and haircuts can change lives.
This year I immediately agreed when I felt God’s gentle nudging to volunteer to be part of CenterPointe’s Back-To-School event working with registration. I wanted to be a part of bringing hope to families – kids just like mine. Parents just like us. Yet, when I approached the tables to start my shift, I was told that I wasn’t needed behind the table.
Oh no they didn’t.
Oh yes God did.
Oh how I hate listening!
As I stepped outside of behind the table, I walked into foot traffic assistant mode. It was not the role I signed-up for, yet God was nudging me out of my comfort zone. I was being called out. I was being used.
Oh yes He did.
My role was simply guiding families to registration tables and sending them cheerfully on their way to pick out a new backpack. Somewhere between high-fiving endless groups of boys, humming “Let It Go” with the girls and providing empathetic “you’re almost there” nods to parents – I realized how much more fun I was having simply where God was using me. I needed to step out from behind the table. I needed to listen. I needed to just go for it.
Oh…and yes, You were right Lord. Thank You.
Let’s try this again. Where You tell me to go, Lord I will go. You know my steps and Your voice brings life to my heart. May I never cease to search for You, to seek Your face, to dance in Your mercy and to simply listen as You sing over me.
Thank You for telling me continually who I am – Yours. Loved. Wanted. Invested.
God never called us to be comfortable. It’s time to go beyond the table.
May I never get too comfortable that I refuse to go beyond my boundaries May I never get too comfortable to simply go and tell.
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