Step Out & Thrive Ministries with Bethany Boring
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Short Update

Today was another round of ivig and chemo. Everything went fairly smooth, nothing like Tuesdays adventure. I came in dehydrated, so the first hour was just fluids and a lecture about drinking more. I'm trying my best, but you can only get so much in without so much coming back out. I kept dozing off during the treatment itself, which normally isn't bad, but in my case, they like to come and ask questions periodically just to make sure everything was going okay. At one point I remember talking to an assistant and before I knew it they were waking me back up. My body is just exhausted. My muscles ache, my headaches are pretty bad, my thoughts seem to connect here but not verbally…it's completely frustrating.

I'm glad I have a few days to sleep and maybe hibernate too. Out of the sheet of over 20 plus side-effects, I had the blessing of getting every single one. Seriously? Yes, seriously.

I don't think I'll be going anywhere this weekend and for the first time in a LONG time, not going anywhere sounds perfect. Hopefully, I can stay hydrated enough and get a few things down to help my energy level a bit. All of this sleep and lack of human contact is not me. My fear is that this chemo will lose the “old Bethany” somewhere. It is so weird that since Monday I haven't felt like myself…these treatments not only effect the physical, but the emotional and psychological as well. I continue to try to remind myself that this is all temporary, but it's so hard.

A friend told me last night that I need to laugh more everyday. I've laughed once today (that I can remember) when one of our church volunteers called and cracked a joke…laughter in crazy, unexplainable times like this does indeed help. Now that Josh is home, perhaps I will get my recommended dose for the day.

No amazing thoughts today. A friend did text me at just the right minute today, simply asking how I was doing. When I responded asking if he wanted the truth or the “everything is fine” remark, he asked for the truth. So, I vented explaining how tired I was, how angry I can get that this is really gripping my life like this, how though I get that God is using this that sometimes I really wish He would go use somebody else. He responded, eventually…and I found myself feeling so much better getting it out (ever been there?). I really think God knew what I needed when I needed it…still frustrating nevertheless.

LASTLY – I deleted the ESPN app on my iPad today. It required the use of a cable account that I did not have…a friend helped me get this info so I could finally watch my UK basketball. Yet, I thought nothing of it…surely with all the junk going on in my life, I deserve one little perk, right? One of the readers posted a reply to my post telling me using this app without an account was stealing. So, I deleted the comment…but it kept eating away at me. Dumb blog…yet, this reader was right and though they posted anonymously, I give them credit for not letting me slide. I like watching the Cats as much as the next UK fan…but it's not worth stealing. The app is gone and I'm back to borrowing cable from friends. I guess thats better anyway.

If anyone out there wants to make a Florida girls dream, I see that the Wildcats are playing the Gators here in Florida here in a few weeks. I've NEVER been to a real UK Basketball game…so if anyone has any connections…just saying' (I had to try…).

About the Author Bethany

I am an ICF trained Certified Professional Christian Life Coach (Christian Coach Institute Graduate), Motivational and Inspirational Speaker, mentor to women and an author. I am an author, blogger, ICF trained Certified Professional Christian Life Coach, Motivational and Inspirational Speaker and encourager. More than anything, I define myself as a child of God. I simply desire to use my passion for thriving (getting every single drop out of life) to inspire others. I have overcome disabilities (coloboma vision-loss, severe hearing-loss and a small right arm). I am a double brain cancer survivor. I use the story God has given me to move beyond what I am surviving and thrive in His promises. I enjoy being a wife to Steve for over 12 years and mother to three boys (ages 9, 7 and 4).

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6 comments
Anonymous says February 12, 2012

I sent you the comment that the app is stealing if you don't pay for the cable service. I was wrong. I called Bright House and asked them, and I was told that it is an ipad app, and that if you can get the app, even if you don't have tv service, it isn't stealing. I was mistaken, and I apologize for the trouble i caused you. You are fine to use the app, I called Bright House to be certain. I apologize again for the trouble I caused you.

Anonymous says February 12, 2012

I sent you the comment that the app is stealing if you don't pay for the cable service. I was wrong. I called Bright House and asked them, and I was told that it is an ipad app, and that if you can get the app, even if you don't have tv service, it isn't stealing. I was mistaken, and I apologize for the trouble i caused you. You are fine to use the app, I called Bright House to be certain. I apologize again for the trouble I caused you.

Bethany Boring says February 12, 2012

You didn't cause me any problems…in fact, you did what I should have done by actually calling the Brighthouse company up and asking!! I did find out through another friend that I can watch the games online through the ESPN website…so, that's what I've been doing and it worked GREAT tonight…what a game!!! Don't beat yourself up…you stood up for what you believed in…and even returned when you discovered more facts…it's a silly iPad app…NO WORRIES!!! Trust me, I got so much other stuff to worry about!!! THANKS!!!

Bethany Boring says February 12, 2012

You didn't cause me any problems…in fact, you did what I should have done by actually calling the Brighthouse company up and asking!! I did find out through another friend that I can watch the games online through the ESPN website…so, that's what I've been doing and it worked GREAT tonight…what a game!!! Don't beat yourself up…you stood up for what you believed in…and even returned when you discovered more facts…it's a silly iPad app…NO WORRIES!!! Trust me, I got so much other stuff to worry about!!! THANKS!!!

debra says February 13, 2012

Bright House has an app specific to ipad for their tv cable customers. But i called to ask because I said it was stealing, and the man I spoke to assured me that, if it works, if you have wireless, then it is fine, and you clearly have wireless 🙂 download the app and use it! I was wrong. Also, most tv channels have on-line viewing of shows and such that can be seen on computer, or ipad.

debra says February 13, 2012

Bright House has an app specific to ipad for their tv cable customers. But i called to ask because I said it was stealing, and the man I spoke to assured me that, if it works, if you have wireless, then it is fine, and you clearly have wireless 🙂 download the app and use it! I was wrong. Also, most tv channels have on-line viewing of shows and such that can be seen on computer, or ipad.

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