I’m already on chapter 6? Seriously? “What Happens When Women Say Yes To God” – they change the world…that’s what!
I’m not sure about you, but my mornings are anything but graceful…or grateful! My evenings are filled with jolted thinking, the lights are “on” and for me, it takes a bit more than a pillow to keep my wheels from turning. In fact, my best writing has been done in the late night – early morning literally looking into the moonlight.
But the morning…regardless of the amount of sleep I get, they are so hard! The boys wake me up…sometimes saying “Cockadoodledoo mommy!” Louder than even the fattest rooster could belch…most likely at a higher pitch too. Other times I’m greeted with one or two flying little Spider-Man mid-air before they make contact…I think they’ve seen mommy run to the bathroom too many times to use that greeting much anymore.
Perhaps mornings are hard because mentally I have a fresh, new list of chores to do, errands to run, businesses to run, calls to make, jobs to start, incompletesd tasks looming from yesterday and shoot…if I don’t even make it out of bed before checking my email and Facebook! Seriously?!
Funny…I realized how self-centered I am from the get-go and how God-centered I can become at night. It’s almost as if a switch in my brain clicks on when my husband heads to bed that I can finally relax in Gods arms!
Why haven’t I allowed myself to START my day in HIS arms? After all, that’s where I started…that’s where I’ve been, that’s where I want to remain.
HIS WORDS to me this week…
Even before He made the world, God loved you, Bethany, and chose you in Christ to be holy and without fault in His eyes. God decided in advance to adopt you into His own family by bringing you to Himself through Jesus Christ. This is what He wanted to do, and it gave Him great pleasure. (Ephesians 1:4, 5 NLT)
Even before the world came into existence, God LOVED me? Yes.
But I didn’t cross off my “To-Do” list yet…
But I didn’t tell my kids I loved them yet…
But I didn’t have time to really talk to You…
Shoot…You loved me naked, not even able to feed myself?
And AFTER planning me and my life, then He started His to-do list…you know…just errands like creating the world, saving the world and making a place for us in Heaven… (and ya thought you had a lot going on today!).
God told me…little, busy, thinking I can take on the world queen ant….the God of the Universe, Creator of live, Author of life, our Abba Father spent time claiming us BEFORE doing anything else! That sets us apart from everything in this world! We are His!
It hit me…ending the day in His arms isn’t enough. Talking with Him during the day, even smiling when I feel His presence…that’s not enough either.
I need to start in Him, with Him so I can live through Him and for Him.
Perhaps my morning prayer would go a bit like this…
You loved me before I loved myself. I give over everything on my list to you right now . I have my selfish agenda for today and I need You to be my calendar, wreck my plans and show Me what I can do with You today. Help me to remind myself when my schedule changes…and it will…that You are in control and to see Your opportunities throughout this day. I don’t want to do life my way today. Please use me today. I am Yours.
Ok…so we will give this a shot here in a few hours…. Team huddle…3-2-1 BREAK!!
EDIT – Made it out of bed, got the kids to school and THEN realized I forgot this prayer today! Ok…I’m setting a reminder on my phone! I will get this down!!