Winded and completely frazzled I drew my head slowly from the coldness of the sidewalk. My mind was racing as I was met by stares from onlookers from the safety of their vehicles. As I laid there, outstretched and face planted on the ground, I felt a gentle breeze rush over my bloody elbow and bruised knees. I no longer felt the urge to complete the rest of my run.
My mind raced with how exactly to pickup my body, like any professional runner could easily do and actually make it look like I was confident. I wanted the eyes I felt staring at my self-esteem to leave surprised by my endurance. Yes, driver in the red jeep, I dare you to fall and rise back up without shedding a tear like this mom has today.
I wanted so badly to sink into the ground at that moment, allow the tears to come and disappear into a sink hole. I felt completely embarrassed and all alone.
Suddenly, I felt burning across the front of my body that was, yes indeed, still plastered on the sidewalk. Lifting myself up in exhaustion, I noticed freshly painted skid marks…my bloody skid marks! My body not only fell, but it was moving fast enough to actually bend the law of motion! This new running hobby was making a positive difference indeed! As a grin met my face, I made sure to meet the onlooker in the red jeep that was applauding from his window.
After I felt God rise my groan into laughter, I remembered it was safe to exhale. This was not the end of my world, nor the end of my run for the day. I was a change in progress and falls were guaranteed to happen. I will be breathing in His love and exhaling His grace to myself and others throughout this journey. Step by step He is making me new. I just need to remember to breathe in the midst of falling.
Onlookers don’t care how fast we manage to run through life. Those watching you notice the way you rise after you fall. Do you hold your breath in fear or can you breathe in His promises and exhale onward? I’m learning that it’s finally safe to exhale because He has a lot more coming. Falls do not define us. May the One you run with and soar for breathe His life into you today.
This is my first week linking up with Lisa Jo Baker for “5 Minute Friday.” Five minutes of writing on a given phrase without editing. Today’s phrase was “exhale.”
Bonus – I took my skidding fall last Wednesday and today I managed to run my usual 6 mile route (a bit slower, but mission completed!). My boys love counting my bruises from my new hobby!