Abba Daddy –
Your love for me is too great for me to understand. No matter where I look, You are always there, regardless if I choose to see You or not. I cannot go anywhere You are not and nothing can ever seperate me from Your love! That is too humbling, amazing and makes me want to worship.
Oh, how You fill me in the most incredible yet everyday ways.
I see You in the bright colors of the sunrise before my morning run.
As I run, without headphones today, I hear You ask me, “How are you doing, really?” And You actually wait for my hesitant response…and then we talk.
I see You sometimes in the clouds, painting pictures at just the right time. You are an amazing Painter.
Hearing the laughter of my husband in unison with our three boys – oh, it makes me smile and my cup overflows.
Splashing in the bathtub, giggles in the bubbles and singing the very songs I know will be forever stuck in my head…and smiling at what You have made.
Spontaneous dance sessions in the kitchen, glancing through old photo albums and chasing after the naked child that got away…these are the moments I see You, My Daddy, smiling with me.
Lying on the couch at night after a hard day with my husband – often times laughing at our own mistakes – I feel You freeing me to be who I am in You.
I literally hear You as we drive down the street listening to my kids singing along with their favorite Christian radio artists and my heart melts.
My being aches for You when I can only watch as my kids must make choices on their own – Abba Daddy, how do You watch me make foolish decisions everyday?
You watch me as I pace in the bathroom trying to get my anger back under control as little fingers curl under the door.
You allow me to breathe in Your peace in those moments I feel completely overwhelmed, outnumbered and alone.
As I simply return to Your promises, again, I know You have never let me down…
In You I find my purpose
In You I find my peace
In You I find my joy
In you…only in You is life for my ever thirsty soul
Fill me Daddy…
…after my 4 year-old finds the Mountain Dew stash
…when I find yet another soiled pull-up in the washer
…when I find my husband’s wallet in the washer
…when I have been rear-ended in the Walmart parking lot
…when permission slips and field trip funds are not quite matching-up
…when my child struggles to read
…when my child hates wearing hearing-aids
…when my child loses his hearing-aids
…when I ask You why he needs hearing-aids anyway
…when my child is made fun of at school
…when my husband has a bad day at work
…the morning after nobody gets any sleep (come Lord Jesus!)
Oh Abba Daddy, I know I am nothing without You. Thank You for opening my eyes to see that even though my quiet time may have a beginning and a too-soon end, my walk with You continues throughout the day. You speak to me through my craziness. God, you care about my little mommy mess and I don’t get how You can ever love me this much! Yet, oh how I crave being close to You, hearing Your voice, feeling Your embrace and always knowing that You love me.
Thank You for filling me and allow my love to overflow to my husband, my kids and make an awesome mess in my little mommy world!
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